Friday, May 29, 2015

Review of World Premiere of "Paper Tigers" Documentary at Seattle International Film Festival

Last night I went to the Seattle International Film Festival's world premiere of the documentary, “Paper Tigers,” about the implementation of trauma-informed care, restorative practices, and a health center at an alternative school in eastern Washington state in a town called Walla Walla. The movie profiles 4-5 teens and 1 couple in their high school years as this school implements the techniques. There were a few hundred people (predominantly middle-aged white women) in the theater.

The film highlighted multiple dimensions of “at-risk youth” personalities (from silly to goofy and shy to violent and combatant or addictive), explained the physiological effect that trauma has on cognitive behavior and development of youth uncovered by the CDC's ACE Study , showed the negative impact that adverse childhood experiences (ACES) have on life expectancy and health, and interviewed youth and teachers to show various sides of the school’s progress (missteps, challenges, personal struggles, etc).  

The director, many of the teachers, and one student were present and took questions after the movie. All in all, the movie and the Q&A were great. I applaud this community for taking on the overwhelming task of implementing this much needed multidimensional system. I don't do direct service, and I am NOT jealous of those who do. I sing their praises, for I would never have the patience to do what they do. The movie shines a light on the complexity that poverty, substance abuse and alcoholism, disabilities, familial relationships, homelessness, romantic partnerships, health concerns, and mental illness can have on young people’s attendance and scholastic achievement.

Being that the documentary took place in a small town in eastern Washington, it was good to see a different “face” to at-risk youth than I am used to in Chicago. Most of the teens presented as white or latino, biracial, and possibly Native American. Few, if any, presented as black. I hope this highlights to people that these complex issues are not “a black thing” or a “city thing,” but that there are still young people throughout rural and small-town America who are coping with these problems.

There were two things I thought were a bit problematic in the film, and two things from the Q&A:
  • One teacher (Mr. Eric Gordon?) said, “All you need is unconditional love”…which as you know, might imply that communities that don’t implement these practices don’t love their children. Which we all know is not true. The reality is that some people are equipped with better knowledge and skills, and others are not. Some people understand the complicated world that is trauma stewardship, and some have not yet had the opportunity to learn about this and other best practices.
    I understand that the intention of this teacher was not to imply that other teachers and these children’s parents don’t love their children, but if we continue to associate love with the manner in which we need to implement these programs, adults run the risk of alienating the very allies we are trying to inform and educate. Cultural sensitivities among families are difficult to navigate, and working with staff, administrators, and students is no different. Yes, love is a part of it, but I think what love develops is about respect, forgiveness, understanding, patience. All the things that lead to love, but there’s a danger in calling one type of affection the only way that affection can be validated.
     
  • Two, that same teacher had the youth self-quantify their ACES without consideration for whether or not the young people handled the traumatic events well. (For example, we wouldn’t expect a teen to react the same way if they lost a brother to gun violence as if he/she lost a grandparent to old age. In particular, we also must ensure that through intakes and sharing of information, that we are sensitive to pushing labels on youth who are only just learning self-identification and self-expression. We must ensure we do no additional harm to the youth as they self-identify with higher risks. The ACE intake/questionnaire should be a TOOL that professionals use to indicate potential areas for further discussion. It should be used as a means to circle back and check in, but not as a “this score = X.”
    Because that is what evaluations and tools are---just tools to provide some baseline and some sense of quantification to a world that largely relies on context. If we remove the context from the interaction, we risk harming those we wish to help.


Lastly, the Q&A identified two huge missed opportunity that the documentary should have emphasized:

  • One, the documentary showed four main teachers and one administrator as the leaders of this initiative. And it’s true that there must be a leader of the initiative, but something a staff member stated in the Q&A was crucial to understanding the success of the school’s climate change: EVERY PERSON WHO WORKS AT THE SCHOOL MUST BE ACTIVELY TRAINED AND ENGAGED IN THE TECHNIQUES TO SEE PROGRESS. Two teachers will not be able to cause a shift in the student body. Staff must present a unified voice, presence, and attitude, else the efforts will have minimal impact. Much like recycling one bottle of water will not create a large impact in our natural environment, we must teach towns, companies, and schools the importance of system-wide recycling and pollution reduction programs. We cannot expect to see changes in our ozone when only 1-2 residents implement what is intended as a systems change. This, of course, feeds into my last point…

  • Which may be the most crucial point that was overlooked: WITHOUT SUPPORT FROM THE ADMINISTRATION, THIS WILL FAIL. Many administrators pay lip service to providers about “creating a culture of calm” and wanting change, but they don’t want to take time out from preparing students for standardized tests to implement social emotional learning. This is not just an administrator issue….this is an American issue. Without allowing teachers the time to build social emotional skillbuilding into their classrooms, our young people will fail. We cannot teach to the test. We cannot expect youth who have been only “taught to the test” to come out of school prepared for leadership positions, to work with team mates on a project, or to have critical thinking and practical application skills. Without education reform, teachers will be seen as “continuing to fail our students” when America continues to fail our teachers.



During the Q&A portion, a (presumed) administrator asked how one implements the program, and the teachers said there was no road map. Which isn’t true---there’s local and international programs that offer trauma-informed care and restorative justice training. I provided the director with the name and contact information for Alternatives’ Restorative Justice program. I requested that he build a resource for people asking for follow-up information to the film, but I’m not sure he was hearing me. Still high on everyone’s excitement about the film.


EDIT: I just came across this article that also explains the correlation of ACEs in pop-culture relevant terms and thought I'd link to it. Not sure the #s are all correlated, but this is an important quote that I like to post: 
“When people are having problems,” Dr Robert Anda, another author of the ACE study, tells me, “it’s time to stop asking what’s wrong with them, and start asking what happened to them.”

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Two Months In

Well, it's been nearly two months since I moved to Seattle officially. I didn't expect it to take me this long to get around to writing a post about it. So, here's a few things that I do now and have felt/experienced:

(1) I compost things now, and have 3 different garbage/recycling cans. I bring my glass recycling into the office recycling cans because my building doesn't take glass. YES. I DO THAT NOW.

(2) I am attempting to grow things on my porch. Pray that my cats stop eating everything and puking it up all over so the plants won't die. 

(3) I am drinking green smoothies frequently. Like at least a few times per week. I'm trying macha ones now simply because I need caffeine. Not a huge fan of the hemp protein, so we'll see what else doesn't taste like garden weeds.



Icky.



(4) I miss the simplicity of only having two program areas and +/-8 programs (there's 30+ programs here). And five directors. I have 10 or so that I actively work with.

(5) I have tried biking to/from work. I have yet to make it all the way home with my bike not being in someone's car. God these hills are ROUGH.

(6) I spend most days with my windows thrown open in my apartment. People call it cold when it's <65 degrees. I giggle.

(7) Too many socks and sandals. 


Ta-da! I want my feet to be warm AND free!


(7a) I am dating a man who wears exclusively sandals. I never thought this day would come. This week, I convinced him into Keens. I'm slowly progressing his feet into getting more used to being in shoes. This is a battle I will go to bat for.

(7b) I feel more free to dress strangely. And not care about it. One day, dresses. Next day, jeans and tees. Next day, funky. It's nice to feel free to express my lack of fashion understanding and get a little weird.

(8) I've had to restrain my face while people talk to me about being reiki practitioners. Or discuss crystals. Or anything else that makes me feel as queasy as if someone just asked me, "Have you heard about our good lord and savior Jesus Christ?"

(9) Passive-aggressive doesn't even BEGIN to explain how people function out here. I mean, It was implied I was "direct" because I pop into a person's office rather than email her. She sits two doors down from me. TWO DOORS.

(10) I eat mostly veggie when Chris is around, since he's veggie and prefers organic. I eat HELLA meat when he's not around. 

(11) I live in a 424-square-foot studio that costs $1100/month. They are raising this to $1295/month in two months. I really miss not being able to hear EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. From the cats constantly fighting to people peeing in the other room. Seriously. All the noises.


(Note: I wish my place was that nice.)


(12) I have a porch. I would love to read on it, but have only done so once. Why? Jobby job. Long hours. Lack of want to feed my brain more than I'm already doing already. I mean, how much more room is in there anyway?

(13) I'm a huge fan of Archer and Netflix. I wish I could binge watch stuff, but the layout of my place doesn't allow for more than a few episodes on my Kindle every night.

(14) I have to dress up WAY more frequently and schmooze than I did at my old job . I am learning to schmooze. I need to do the "fake it til you make it" deep breathing shit more while in SCHMOOZE mode, but whatev. I've already had one or two site visits, a few minor events, and a major event to practice. I'm learning.

(15) I still have a serious love affair with peanut butter. And peanut butter noodles. Don't hate! Celebrate! (That you don't have to eat them bc I'm miles away.)

(16) I am growing my love affair with coffee. There's no centralized coffee at my office. Everyone brings in coffee for their own departments and brews it that way. Which means everyone in RD walks one block to the Starbucks or Fuel rather than talking with their peers that they don't get along with about who's turn it is to brew coffee and how so-and-so hasn't brought coffee in X weeks. Or at least that's my assumption. Everyone has cliques and they pair up to go get coffee in said cliques. I don't have a table to sit at yet, so I get mine on my own.

5% of people in Seattle when they mention coffee.
The other 55% remaining are mocking him for drinking lattes and not pour-overs.
The remaining 40% can't afford coffee AND rent, so sacrifices had to be made.


(17) I work for a huge agency that is going through growing pains and lacks many of the best practices I'm used to. Or maybe I just don't know about them. This place is so big, it's taking a while to get around to learning everything I expected to know and do by now.

(18) I have been "warned" I may rub people the wrong way. I blankly stared at the person who said this (BTW, multiple people have said this to me). He then nervously said, "But it looks like that doesn't really bother you." I said, "Nope. It doesn't really. I mean, I'm not out to make enemies, but I have a lot of work to do." 

Some things change. Some never will. 


Next time I write it'll be more about Chicago vs. PNW/Seattle. For now, I want to thank every single person out there who has been supportive of me and my move. I am learning to love the things that make this place exactly what I wanted. I have beautiful skies every night. I wake up feeling excited about the work I'm doing. I'm excited to have the freedom that I have. I am working back toward my love of exercise (okay, inching....). I'm learning SO. FUCKING. MUCH. I'm growing. I'm pushing. I'm navigating the ick and discomfort of a new place. 

And I'm so grateful to have the support of my friends and family.

Thank you for all your kind words. They've helped me more than words can express. 

XOXO,
Kerry