Ugh

If I have to explain one more time that I would have stood by Nick for a million years until he felt loved and supported but that HE did not want that any more, I think my fucking head is going to explode. 

I would have kept coming back to what he needed and wanted for ever, ignoring my needs and wants, just to have him happy and by my side. 

But that's the problem. He didn't see me by his side. So what the fuck can I do? Deal with the pain of rejection. Feel all of it with the core of my being. And walk away.