Again, most days I somehow find solace in knowing that I can't make someone want what they don't want and that this is best for me. But on days when togetherness is emphasized, no matter how much family, parental, sibling, or nephew love I feel, it's not up to snuff.
So I'll resist the urge to drunk text to make sure he didn't spend the holiday alone. I'll resist the urge to make sure he's okay. It's all I've known or cared about for many years now.
God it's just so hard to break a heart full of habits.
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